Kundalini Diary 2021

I have decided to keep a public Kundalini diary. Kundalini awakens in more and more people and I feel so connected to them that I want to share my experiences and adventures with them.

March

10.03.2021
I wake up at 6:30 after a dreamy night and still feel the strong energy that had already taken over my entire body during the night and had given me some very beautiful moments in the violet-silver light of my soul. I get up, feed my cats and lie down again – on my back, palms facing up, sleep mask over my eyes. The energy is very quickly back to the peak of the night and although I have covered my eyes well, a bright orange light sets in. I increasingly feel my ego fading and my soul entering my consciousness.

After a short time I am completely connected with my soul. I feel its love for me, but also for humanity as a whole. Soul consciousness is the consciousness of the meta-level, which is a level beyond this 3rd dimension. I am now my soul consciousness and perceive how it makes important decisions and how it refines and differentiates the decisions more and more. They are profound decisions that I will not divulge as they are too personal, but they spring from pure love for all that is. The energy takes another step up as the choices are released into manifestation, there is no other way I can put it.

The soul manifests apparently by making choices and then releasing them for manifestation. It is interesting to observe in retrospect how the soul knows, 100 percent knows(!), that it will also come to pass, that is, the manifestations will happen. How did a voice say to me at this retreat?

“For a vision to become something lasting, a material creation, you must anchor it in the material plane. To do that, you have to KNOW that it exists. Not sometime in your future, but in your here and now. It has always existed and you know that with full conviction. No doubts, no only believing in it! Belief is not knowledge, only with knowledge you manifest.”

I thought Ayahuasca had taught me this lesson, but it must have been my soul.

At some point I have to get up, because I have to be at work at 10 o’clock. I take the deep inner peace with me and still on the way to work I feel the wonderful energy rising in my neck. The workday is intense, but things seem to take care of themselves. I keep this energy until the evening and finally into the night.

11.03.2021
The night was characterized by deep, dreamy sleep, even more dreamy than the night before. There was also a lucid dream in which I first flew over dense rainforest and then over my birth city. It’s 6:30 again, which seems to be my new wake-up time, and again the body is at a high energy level. The morning kundalini is “softer” this time, though, than the day before. Like a feather it caresses my whole body, from the outside as well as from the inside. I feel complete inner peace. I am connected to my soul again this morning, but not as intensely as the day before. The ego is clearly present and is already going through the coming day. Typical ego, the soul does not do such things. It is pure being and pure love.

I sing softly to myself. Deep inhalation and long, quiet exhalation while sounding, in all pitches. It does so much good, especially the deep inhaling. The tones also do me good and so I lie on my side, the Kundalini energy very present and tones softly to myself. Two seconds of deep inhalation and 20 seconds of slow exhalation through the vocal cords. This happens automatically, I did not set out to do it. The Kundalini wants this, it obviously knows that it is good for me. After 10 minutes I am completely awake and at full presence, get up and start the day.

I decide to keep a Kundalini diary and as I write this down, I feel the energy moving through my whole body and rising up the back of my neck.

12.03.21
Energy present when waking up, but not high. During the day again and again small Kundalini “flames”, but nothing worth mentioning.

13.03.21
A typical Kundalini morning. Waking up around 8 a.m. from a dreamy night, including two short lucid dreams, I bathe in silky energy and look with closed eyes into the warm light of two candles. Unfortunately, a natural need forces me to leave the bed. When I lie down again, the energy is hardly noticeable. To get back into my kundalini flow, I use a purely visualization-based technique that I learned in one of my first Ayahuasca sessions five years ago. It works right away and has the advantage that you can dose the energy very well. Piece by piece you can approach the level you want to have, although exceptionally strong states as known from Ayahuasca are not possible. The neurotransmitter DMT is missing, which gives the energy of Kundalini, the Prana, the turbo mode.

As the silky energy reaches my head, the facial muscles contract. I relax them again. In all further visualizations they do so again and again I relax until at some point I let it go – why not exercise the facial muscles 🙂 Then I stand up. The kundalini has put me in an even better mood than I was already in. It’s raining, but inside me the sun is shining.

14.03.21
Strong kundalini, after a dreamy night. Although the energy is very present, it still has something soft and silky. The whole body is filled with it and puts me in a state of bliss and resting contentment. It is Sunday and I can enjoy this wonderful gift for a long time. Even after a bath in salt water, which I allow myself at some point, it is still strong and only weakens in the course of the late day. When I practice yoga nidra for 40 minutes around 2 p.m., the inner field of vision is filled with blue-violet light, even though I am wearing a tight eye mask.

15.03.21
A dreamy, unfortunately too short night, I have behind me. In the last dream I walked on thin sticks through a tropical resort and admired the colorful birds in the treetops. I also walked through the sea with them. I then looked at the beach from the water side, from above, from the elevated perspective. Then I woke up and what I noticed immediately was the vibration state. The whole body was vibrating finely. You have to think of it as a high frequency pulsation of every cell of the body, a very pleasant feeling. In addition, a gentle kundalini. I stayed like this for a while and enjoyed it, but then I had to get up and start the day.

I get into the vibration mode more and more often and faster and faster. It is a prerequisite for astral travel, so I assume that I will be able to do it soon, that is, bring it about consciously. I have already had astral journeys, also a few deliberately induced ones, but to induce them completely consciously, as William Buhlmann or Jürgen Ziewe have been doing it for decades and also documenting it, I only succeed in special cases, for example when I wake up in sleep paralysis. Then I roll out of my physical body and go for a walk in my apartment. Sometimes I scare away demons in the process 🙂 You wouldn’t believe what’s lurking around in your own apartment – whoever forgot to do that to me then.

Today it did not work, I was already too awake. But so I could enjoy the vibration state for a while and study again exactly how it feels.

18.03.21
A “normal” Kundalini morning. Present, pulsating energy after several intense and extraordinarily realistic dreams, including a late lucid dream. As always, first the cats are taken care of and then I lie down once again to go into myself. No planning and nervously throwing thoughts around ego today, ideal for some exercise.

I lie down on my back with my hands on the sacral chakra, fingers pointed at the root chakra. I usually do this in the morning hours during Ayahuasa to feel the full power of Kundalini once again, today I try it without. As a tingling begins in the root chakra, I tap the root chakra with my index finger in a slow rhythm. It responds with gentle waves of energy. I reinforce the exercise by adding another finger, which causes a significant increase. Encouraged in this way, I now use the whole hand. Like a drum roll, I tap the root chakra with both hands in rapid succession. The energy rushes through my body like a surge and this time also reaches the brow chakra. It lights up violet and then dims back down to normal brightness.

I give the body a breather.

After five minutes I choose another technique, the Imaginary Energy Shovel. Since the Kundalini is already awake, this morning, the effect is quite strong, but still not strong enough for me. I would like to manage to get the Kundalini flowing maximally without any means, like Ayahuasca, Cannabis or Tumbleweed. If I don’t make it today, then some other time – I’m not in a hurry. The last months I couldn’t practice because my nervous system had to get used to the new energy level I got in my January update. In the meantime, I hardly have this all-burning Kundalini anymore, but find it pleasant even during strong surges.

Again I allow myself a breather.

As a last exercise I choose the one that Ayahuasca had shown me in November, when I should have drunk it, but could not, because I was in the midst of accompanying a very difficult process. The aya spirit told me then how to do it without additional Ayahuasca.

I start with the exercise that consists of first tensing a certain muscle in the neck and then the muscle around the root chakra. I do this several times and the energy increases by a factor of two to three. The energy waves are sometimes so strong that individual muscles begin to twitch and my facial muscles contract. At the same time I feel a pressing and tapping of the forehead chakra. This exercise is very strenuous because it takes great concentration and effort to tense the relevant muscles, since both are muscles that one does not actually tense consciously, i.e. arbitrarily. When at some point I am exhausted, I stay lying for a while and enjoy the very nice energy that by now floods my whole body. A slight flicker of light tells me that the Third Eye is not open, but very active.

I think that in the future I will be able to do without one of the first two exercises. When sitting, the imaginary energy shovel is a good choice, and when lying down, tapping with the fingers (drum roll, “Bang the Drum”). The neck PC muscle exercise, however, is my absolute favorite. It is very effective and can catapult the kundalini to real heights, though not yet to the level it experiences through Ayahuasca or cannabis. These are the ultimate kundalini boosters, especially Ayahuasca.

19.03.21
Yesterday, on 18.03. I repeated the neck PC muscle exercise during the day, whenever there was quiet in my job. As a result, I came into my energy very quickly during my evening Kundalini meditation. At night this continued, but it only affected the dream intensity, not the sleep itself, because the energy waves are still gentle and yet full of power. By gentle I mean that they no longer cause extreme heat or cold. Kundalini can be felt as both heat and cold, depending on whether it is rising or falling. When it is in flow (rising and falling) it is perceived neutrally, neither hot nor cold, but only as clearly present energy.

This morning it was felt as a high frequency, fine pulsation in the spine, which was also very pleasant. When I concentrated on it, it went up to the head and down again via the forehead chakra, which again resulted in the already described effect on my facial muscles (see entry of 18.03.). But I ended it quickly and started the day motivated and in a good mood. In a good mood also because of the very funny dreams I had, I had to laugh heartily several times in two dreams. In retrospect, these were situations that would make me smile more in waking life, but in the dream world, different rules apply.

My Kundalini training continues, that much is clear.

In the evening I watched this video. It is so interesting that I will transcribe it for my blog. It is about the view of the Gnostics on the phenomenon of Kundalini. For the Gnostics, the enrgy can be used both positively (creative, divine) and negatively (destructive, demonic). This coincides with my experience. I have resolved to always use my energy positively. Destructive energies we already have enough on earth, there is an urgent need for positive energies and everyone can contribute his part.

In another video, I can’t remember which one, it was suggested that Adolf Hitler had used his Kundalini destructively – I believe that too. That he had such a paralyzing effect on the masses is a typical phenomenon for demonically used Kundalini. Whether he was aware of it is another question. In any case, it is known that he was interested in mystical subjects and even had scientists working on them. Yes, Kundalini, this goddess, can be used against life.

Duality. There she is again.

21.03.21
Early to bed, the evening before and in the night, exactly at 03:30, beautiful black and white geometries and a clearly flowing Kundalini. I know that Kundalini causes the brain to paint colorful pictures, and other Kundalini activists also report this, but black and white, even more so artistically pixelated, like old photos, that is new. I already had that with DMT (Ayahuasca), but in the home bed, without anything, I did not have that yet. I have long suspected that the Kundalni presses the body’s own DMT, which has been proven in the spinal fluid and in the ventricles of the nerve tracts in humans and animals, into the brain during its ascension process via the CSF, where it triggers visions.

The morning then energetically great. I cannot find a German word that does justice to the English word Bliss and therefore describe it as a mixture of euphoria, happiness and being high. This is exactly what Kundalini does to you when it gently fills your whole body, and with “whole body” of course also the head is meant. But then I had to get up, because I work today. And now, hours after waking up, it still feels very good. Lady K. you goddess!

22.03.21
Slept through and woke up with present, pleasant energy. I can enjoy them not long, because I’m late. The day calls. When I look into my eyes while brushing my teeth, they are such a brilliant blue that I haven’t seen them in a long time. I’ve been told this by friends at retreats that my eye color is different after Ayahausca – ice blue instead of gray-blue. Probably the Kundalini is to blame. Then in the late afternoon 30 minutes of Yoga Nidra. Kundalini slowly creeps up and finds its way into every single cell of my body. This time I can enjoy it. Normally I then “bathe” in this energy for 1-2 hours, but a natural need forces me to get up.

23.03.21
It announced itself already in the evening, “guilt” was probably the Yoga Nidra carried out in the late afternoon, that unexpectedly fast and strongly had lured the Kundalini snake from its hiding place. Although only 30 minutes, I still felt the bioelectric energy in every cell hours later.

When I go to sleep already at 9:20 pm, it is immediately back, even stronger than in the afternoon. It is an energy peak like I would compare it to the 1st ceremony of a 3-day Ayahuasca retreat. So, not this exreme power of the 2nd and 3rd night, which gives you the feeling of having so much energy that you could create universes, but still of such strength that sleep is unthinkable. After 15 minutes of lying down, I already feel as if I had taken a full dose of Ayahuasca. My body vibrates energetically and I look into a sea of lights, like stars in the sky. Surrounding the scene is a circle of light. It is dark in the room and I have a sleep mask on top of it.

Body-generated DMT? Quite possible, because after I finally managed to fall asleep and into an unremembered dream, I soon wake up again, and am surprised by very beautiful and artistic images (hypnagogia). My Third Eye is wide open, which I can tell by the fact that my eyes are aligned with the center of my forehead, involuntarily, without controlling it. At the same time, I feel a distinct energy above my head, that is, where the crown chakra is located. After a “slideshow” of images from nature, the visions changed to artistic representations. I am shown beautiful pen and ink drawings, the likes of which I have not seen before. Also what they represent, tells me nothing, they are simply impressively beautiful and designed from fine, deep black lines.

At some point I fall asleep again and dream that I create these images with a quill and ink.

Further short waking phases follow, but without visions. Also the Kundalini is not so strong anymore, so that I can fall asleep quickly each time. In the morning then the well-known waking up in a sea of silky, bioelectric energy – a bath in all sins awakening life force. I feed my cats and lie down again – it is still very early. I fall into a dream, but I don’t remember it either. Only the positive feeling that the dream leaves behind when I wake up, I remember well. The Kundalini – unchanged present.

I have the need to sound, my soul seems to need it. I lie on my side and sing long tones in the vowels a, i, and u. Then I stretch and stretch, finally standing up and grabbing my shruti box, an Indian table harmonium. After the very soothing OMs, I quietly begin this mantra.

The voice becomes clearer and clearer and the chant louder and louder. When I have sung the mantra through 1x at some point, I feel refreshed and cleansed. The day can begin.

24.03.21
Falling asleep is again greatly delayed. As soon as I lie down, the snake becomes active and rushes through my body up to the forehead chakra. There it “turns on the light” – despite the sleep mask it is colorful and bright. In addition, the Kundalini has changed this night, from cool to hot (page 7) and the hot Kundalini is much more energetic and therefore unfortunately more exhausting. Although the unheated bedroom should only have 14-16 degrees, I get rid of all clothes, because I seem to be boiling inside. The heat has by far not the level of this experience here, but it is enough to not let me sleep. As the heat sensation subsides thanks to the cooling measures, I finally fall asleep.

At 04:30 o’clock I wake up and remove also the wool blanket, which I use additionally against the cold winter nights and try to fall asleep again. Unfortunately I can’t – the snake has other plans. Then I sit down upright, cover myself with a light blanket and start meditating. This has been the right decision. Sitting down, the Kundalini is hardly active and so I can cool down on the one hand and relax on the other. Unlike a few nights before, where I had received a complete lesson about demons in a similar, meditative state, this time the thoughts are completely incoherent and without any statement. But since I am only an observer, I let them pass by and don’t worry about their sense or nonsense. After about 30 minutes I dare to lie down again and immediately fall asleep. Two intense dreams follow.

At 07:30 the night is over. The Kundalini of the night has left a pleasant, silky energy that has flooded my entire body. It feels like after an orgasm, only I didn’t have sex or an orgasm. Also, this state lasts much longer than after an orgasm. I loll around and twist my body, which does a lot of good. Then I get up. The cats are hungry.

25.03.21
Too much heat when falling asleep. I reduce my sleeping clothes to a T-shirt and leave it also with the summer blanket. Around 04:30 I wake up. Still too warm. I get up and think about taking a rapé. Some cool the system down, others do the opposite. I rather inform myself again. Then I decide on the Cumaru. I have good ones there, but it was always too grounding for me – now, however, it would be just right. I dose generously and apply vigorously. Immediately my system shuts down energetically. That feels very good.

Around 5 o’clock I go back to sleep. Even as I fall asleep, I am surprised again and again by crystal-clear images that pop up briefly, a reliable sign that intense dreams are on the horizon. I have them then, too. In between I wake up again briefly, look into symetric patterns and immediately fall asleep again.

All dreams since the Rapé were special. There were animals that do not exist like that and in one dream an old man pressed his index finger on my third eye, which triggered visions in the dream. In the last dream I fell over the sumptuous breakfast buffet in a palm resort under a bright blue sky. A small consolation, if one cannot travel already because of the Plandemie.

At 08:30 the night is over. The Kundalini is very gentle and pleasant. No burning, no stinging, no heat.

26.03.21
Although I don’t want to take a rapé right before bed anymore because it pushes the energy too much, I do it because I want to get into exactly that energy today. I chose one of my own Rapé’s, one I created exactly for the case (with Muricie ash from Brazil) that I want to get into my Kundalini at a high level. I had a few successful distance Reiki sessions last year and now want to try again for the current occasion. I have no Reiki training and the successes of the energetic distance addressing sessions may have been coincidence, yet I feel I know exactly what I am doing. On the energetic level there is neither space nor time.

For me it feels good at that moment and if the receiver should experience an improvement, then the Kundalini has fulfilled its purpose. Since the recipient does not know anything about what I am doing and therefore he cannot open himself to the energy, I ask the spirit world for help. “Send healing kundalini to the sick friend. Whether mine, or yours.”

As I lay down to sleep naked because of the great heat, I enjoy the coolness of the blanket in my unheated bedroom. I can more or less sleep through it. During the night, the kundalini changes from hot to cold, then grills me again in the morning, although not as strongly as in the evening. The cool phase during the night is extremely soothing and accompanied by beautiful inner images. Now I sit here and enjoy the gentle, high-frequency pulsation of the morning kundalini.

Kundalini is a bitch. Moody, bitchy and yet irresistible 🙂

27.03.21

28.03.21.
Since Saturday was Ayahuasca day (day ceremony) and I had taken a potent dose that entailed a long, very energetic process, the kundalini is particularly strong this Sunday. Ayahuasca pushes the life energy like no other remedy.

29.03.21
Slept through and awakened by the alarm clock at 06:30. Like every morning a very present Kundalini. The whole body vibrates finely. Enjoying is not, early shift.

30.03.21
Early to bed again, but sleeping is not possible for the time being. The Kundalini comes in small spurts, it really sneaks in, but it doesn’t stop. It increases so much that I start to get the typical DMT-tinitus. First a very high-pitched sound and then a crash, accompanied by hypnagogic noises, voice fragments and light visuals. Then, when my heartbeat goes up as well, I feel like I’m starting an Ayahuasca process, but a pretty strong one. I turn to the side, which brings relief, also the energy subsides. Then I fall asleep.

When I wake up after the first dream, which was quite weird, she is very present again, the kundalini, and I look into a room of subtle patterns. They move slowly, disappear, give rise to new ones and are predominantly in shades of red, orange and yellow. I have to get up because the bladder is calling. Back in bed, I immediately fall asleep again.

The morning is the same as the day before. The alarm clock snaps me out of a dream and my whole body vibrates at a very high frequency.

31.03.21
Strong energy, both when going to sleep and when waking up. I decide to refrain from everything that drives the energy, because my nervous system has to come to rest. So, for now, no more Ayahuasca retreats and rapé only grounding varieties. Reduce sugar even more and lots of exercise in the fresh air.

April

01.04.21
The night was very quiet. Already when going to bed the Kundalini was simply silent and when waking up she shows her gentle side. Very pleasant. No heat, no burning, just silky, soothing energy and a fine vibration. I get the impulse to write something on the subject of “Kundalini warriors”. I don’t know the term and write away. The words come by themselves, I write without thinking. When I finish writing the article, I search the Internet for the term. It exists. It’s rarely used and when it is, it’s in a yoga context. Fits so far with my post about it.

02.04.21
The whole night the Kundalini was on the blink, more would have gone only with Ayahuasca. But I am completely at a distance from everything that stimulates the Kundalini. I only let her decide how far she wants to go with me. No driving by plants or yoga.

I have nevertheless slept deeply – between the short waking phases of strong energy surges. I use these phases to transfer positive thoughts into the world. The Kundalini as a medium of heart wishes, affirmations and positive intentions. I had intense dreams between these phases. Then in the morning a short lucid dream where I watched myself, from the outside, doing my dream actione. I saw myself, dressed in white, with my eyes closed, walking like a sleepwalker through a beautiful garden.

When I awake from this dream, the energy is very strong, even stronger than during the night. But it does not burn, on the contrary. The cool Kundalini has moved into me again, after weeks of heat and burning. Again I use this energy to send benevolent affirmations into the universe. As I point my palms upward, I feel the energy flowing from them. I am sure someone will receive these affirmations. And someone of those who receive them will feel addressed by them.

Yesterday I was guided by an inner voice to write a post about Kundalini Warriors. I wrote in auto mode, without plan, concept or thought. Only during the final sifting I corrected awkwardly formulated sentences and shortened the text to essentials. Only the digression in the middle was not written in auto mode, I inserted it later.

03.04./04.04.21
Both days (morning) a gentle, very pleasant energy, slight vibration and the urge to meditate. The next before the dreams were intense – on 03.04. I remembered four dreams, down to the smallest detail. Today there are only two, but one of them was special. I was watching an old man in the forest being visited by ghosts and animal spirits. They appeared out of nowhere and disappeared back into nothingness. An oversized tiger let him pet it and then dissolved into white mist. The Kundalini is neither hot nor cold at this time. She is also no longer so aggressive. She has a tender, very loving presence. I bathe in her and write this text.

05.04.21
Quiet night. Light morning kundalini that lasts long and remains as a mild presence during the day.

06.04.21
Waking up at 02:20 with colors and patterns. Colors blue and violet/pink. The patterns have the character of objects studded with crystals or diamonds – they shimmer out of themselves. As I lie still, eyes closed, the kundalini begins to gently rise. I get up because I want to finish this, have to get up early. After 30 minutes I go back to sleep.

In the morning again the usual gentle Kundalini energy accompanied by fine vibrations of the back. It feels very good, a bit like after a night of Ayahuasca.

07.04.21
What a Kundalini night! About 2 o’clock I wake up. I keep my eyes closed and the only thing I feel is my Kundalini. The whole body is pure energy, but very pleasant energy.

Then the patterns begin. Objects of all kinds, covered with shining, small crystals in the most different colors. The objects are in constant movement. Then snakes form – typical Ayahuasca beats, covered with the typical Ayahuasca patterns. Intertwined and covered with predominantly red, orange and gold patterns and fractals. The background is light blue, interspersed with objects that shine silver, some gold.

As beautiful as it is, I urgently need to go to the bathroom. I get up, which is not so easy, because I have to feel my legs again. On the toilet the head cinema continues. I stagger back to bed and watch how slowly everything comes to rest and fall asleep.

At 06:30 I am awakened by a light. Blue light. I rejoice, yay, the sun is shining. I take off my sleep mask, but it is dark and cloudy. I feed the cats and lie down again. The dream that follows is weird, but fun. Many beautiful women 🙂

When I wake up, I bathe in silky energy – beautiful, soothing energy. A gentle vibration of every single cell of my body. I would love to lie like this for hours and enjoy this divine energy, but I have to be at work at 10 o’clock. A glance at the clock – 07:45. I still have 15 minutes. I focus on the Ayahuasca spirit, again imagining myself drinking it and then going to meditate to receive Ayahuasca. Then I ask questions and get answers.

As I type this, gentle kundalini waves run through me. It just won’t stop 🙂

08.04.21
Intense energy upon waking, but quickly subsides until it is almost gone. Still a feeling of peace and inner balance. A short crystal meditation, but I can’t really enjoy it because the bladder is pressing. The dreams during the night were again very vivid and realistic. In the last dream I saw myself from above, walking along a street. At the same time, through the eyes of my dream body, I saw the street from the first person perspective. A woman came towards me on a bicycle, looked me in the eyes and shouted “Oh, my God!”. Then she got off the bike and looked after me. In this dream I felt a deep inner peace, I must have radiated that.

09./10.04.21
Two exceptionally intense experiences! On both days the morning Kundalini is very strong, but without any discomfort, like burning, heat or cold. It is just there, enveloping me in a high frequency energy cocoon that I don’t want to leave.

Pure Bliss! Incredibly beautiful!

I remember that just 1 year ago I also had these states, although less regularly and much more gently, but that they were often accompanied by pressure in the temples, sometimes even headaches. I don’t have all that anymore. Instead, I now feel the energy in my head, especially in my forehead. It can now flow freely and thus also into the Ajna chakra, which is connected to the pituitary gland and the pineal gland.

The feeling of happiness comes from endogenous brain chemistry that these glands produce, stimulated by the bioelectric energy of Kundalini.

Others have to take drugs to get into such a state, I just have to go to sleep.

I did wake up briefly both nights because I woke up in vibration mode, meaning the body was vibrating at high frequency, at about 100 Hz and weak amplitude, but since I had no patterns or visions, I decided both times to just keep sleeping.

On the one hand it is very nice to be gifted by the universe in such a way, on the other hand I have to think of all those masked zombis who after 12 months of permanent brainwashing have exchanged their own minds for anxiety neuroses and have fallen into a kind of corona dementia. They have completely forgotten what they are and what they were created to be by the highest, divine authority. Like lemmings, they plunge down the cliffs instead, like an eagle that cannot remember that it can fly and is the most powerful being in the bird world. But as ayahuasca told me in my January ceremony? It’s their process, not yours.

Especially in the morning states of high mental energy, it becomes clear to me again what has been going on in the earthly world for 1 year. So also today.

A laboratory virus was released to decimate, on the one hand, those who, according to the economy, are no longer useful, the old and the weak, and, on the other hand, to bring about an unprecedented redistribution of goods, land and soil (through hundreds of millions of insolvencies of small and medium-sized enterprises) and to drive the entire human race into eternal dependence on the pharmaceutical industry. The pharmaceutical mafia does not have to worry about the virus continuing to mutate; coronaviruses do that on their own. And if people continue to be re-educated with restrictive measures in such a way that they are vaccinated against new mutations every six months, instead of simply letting their immune system take care of it, which it would easily be able to do, then the pharmaceutical syndicates are guaranteed unimaginable profits for the next 50-100 years.

Not only by the vaccinations. Also the secondary diseases of the vaccinations will have such severe health consequences for billions of people that they will of course also earn from it. At the same time, humanity will be severely decimated because their immune systems will be massively weakened and the heavy metals and nanoparticles in the regularly applied vaccines will give them autoimmune diseases that will cause them to die an early death.

The head of this mass crime against humanity is Bill Gates. He choreographs the now initiated global euthanasia, supported by other billionaires and big banks, like FED, EZEB and the IMF, but also by corrupt politicians and journalists. Each of them will get his share of the promised profit, that is out of question.

By the way, yesterday morning I had another interesting lesson. I asked only 1 question and got a very detailed answer that quickly went beyond the actual answer (to the question asked). I do not know what I can believe from it, since it happened again about induced thoughts (downloads) and there I still do not know the source (I suspect my higher self). But I found and find it at least interesting.

11.04.2021
Pleasant, energetic calm while falling asleep, only a very fine, hardly noticeable vibration of the spine.

Around 2 o’clock then the light flash. A dream ends and I look into bright, golden light. I would describe my mental state as a trance. I am not able to move, I feel light and powerless at the same time. It is very pleasant, this lightness.

The light into which I look is very bright and animated by moving objects, which keep changing and cannot be assigned to any objects, or objects known to me. They also shine out of themselves. Golden, golden yellow or orange. Then the color gray changes from golden yellow to silver blue. The objects become finer, crisper. It reminds of the last time (07.04.) where the room was full of objects that had a patina of crystals. This night the crystals have no different colors, they shine either silver or ice blue. Once again the color space changes. Now it changes to dark reds and browns. The objects appear only like shadows. There is still some movement in the space, but nowhere near as intense as in the golden phase. Then everything fades and I become awake, also feeling the weight of my body again.

During the trance a light kundalini flows through me, the heart chakra was burning. Maybe it was the heart chakra that had sent me the golden-yellow light? My third eye was open up to the silver-blue crystals. As always, it felt like the physical eyes were open, but they were closed behind a sleep mask. Then with the auburn, the Third Eye slowly closed. It was most wide open at the beginning, during the golden yellow light.

In the morning a pleasant energy and light vibration. Even now, as I write this down, I feel my spine vibrating finely and Kundalini weaving around my crown chakra. No burning, no coolness. Just blissful, subtle energy.

Interestingly, following the trance, I had again asked questions of the universe. This time I got no answers, total silence. It is probably not only the Kundalini that establishes contact with higher, spiritual instances.

12.04.2021
In the afternoon of 11.04. an extensive meditation. I practiced Yoga Nidra. In YN, one lies flat on one’s back, arms slightly outstretched, playing dead man/woman. Nothing is moved, not the eyelids, nor is the swallowing reflex indulged. Because my sofa is too narrow, I put my hands on my body rather than next to me. One hand was on my heart and the other on my stomach. This hand position activated the Kundalini first in the root chakra and then in the heart chakra, the rest was done by the Kundalini itself. She shot through the body in several bursts and activated the rest of the chakras. Each time she reached the brow chakra, the Third Eye, my inner field of vision brightened and at the same time left me in an even deeper, meditative state than before. After 1 ½ hours, I release myself from the meditation, the trance.

My spine vibrates, the whole body is one ball of energy.

I give myself a grounding rapé and walk barefoot out into the sun. The terrace tiles ground me additionally.

In the evening I go to bed early. Already when falling asleep almost the same as in the afternoon. As soon as I lie on my back, the Kundalini awakens. It increases in several waves until my whole body vibrates with high frequency. This time the arms are at the side of the body, so that the heart chakra becomes normally warm and does not “boil” as in the afternoon. I try to relax, since I can’t do anything about it anyway. Except getting up, which makes little sense if you want to sleep. Although the energy is very present and the hands are so hot that the thumbnails start to sting, I manage to relax and fall asleep. Two intense dreams follow, the last one in a very beautiful, northern German landscape.

Around 2 o’clock the dream ends and I look into indigo blue light. Such a beautiful blue, intense and radiating out of itself. The Kundalini is strong and has once again formed a ball of energy out of me. If someone would ask me now to lift an arm, or a leg, I couldn’t, because I don’t feel separate body parts. I only feel energy, everything is energy. The dark blue changes to lighter blue and the lighter blue changes to silver blue after a while. Again and again objects come and go slowly rotating around themselves, also faces can be seen for a short time – but I don’t know these persons. Then yellow dots form in the silver-blue space. There are more and more. Circular, yellow spots. Then the yellow spots begin to connect with each other, with blue lines. The result is a self-contained object of hundreds of yellow dots of the same size connected by blue lines. The object resembles a body cell. It is interesting that the yellow dots do not glow. They have an intense yellow color, but they do not glow like the room they are in. It still glows silver-blue.

Then everything fades, even the kundalini subsides. I fall asleep again.

In the morning I wake up in the vibration mode, which has become routine. The Kundalini is very present but at the same time gentle and befogging. I lie there for a long time and have to be careful not to fall asleep again, because I have an interview with a dream researcher from Glasgow University this morning. I enjoy the meditative state induced by Kundalini for a while and eventually release myself from my energy cloud. The cats thank me. Feeding time is already exceeded by 1 hour 🙂

13.04.2021
The night was short because I have to get up early today. But it was dreamy and special in its own way again. After 3 hours of sleep I awoke, as I do every night by now, in a meditative state. In contrast to the previous times, where I gained consciousness of the state relatively quickly, last night I had a long phase of nothingness.

This nothingness is characterized by the fact that it is neither dream, nor waking state. I am simply aware, without thinking, or judging the state, as if in deep meditation. This was certainly related to my very great fatigue. Three hours of sleep is simply very little when you desperately need it. Then the waking consciousness came forward and I became aware of the entire situation, including my body and the fact that my hands, feet and calves were burning as if I had a sunburn. At the same time the Kundalini was pleasantly calm when I fell asleep. But now it is grilling me again.

I can enjoy the state even with switched on waking consciousness and my third eye is wide open. Not only do my physical eyes behind the sleep mask feel like they are wide open (they were closed), this time it feels like I have a third eye open on my forehead itself. There is nothing to see, except that my inner field of vision is brightened and expanded upward, beyond the forehead, despite the sleep mask. But nothing takes place, no head cinema, no colors or patterns. Still, I don’t miss anything, the overall state is just beautiful.

I get up at some point, looking at the clock says 01:17. Also interesting: 117, 1117 and 1711 are my lucky numbers. I have christened my two guardian angels, which I always perceive very clearly, especially during ayahuasca, 17 and 11.

Two hours later the same, exactly the same state. First meditative trance and then deep calm and inner peace with the third eye open. This time I perceive colors. Olive green, dark blue, silver gray. I can only hold the state for a relatively short time, maybe five minutes, then I wake up.

In the morning then the big surprise. I free my legs from the blanket because my calves and feet are burning again and keep my eyes closed. Still my forehead feels as if there is another physical eye there that is open. However, I do not have an expanded perception beyond my head this time. I feel deeply connected to my soul, as I did during the last ayahuasca peaks. This time completely without DMT – at most produced by the body itself. At 5:30 a.m. I get up.

14.04.21
Already when falling asleep, a restless night was indicated. Again and again waves of energy surged through my body. At some point I fall asleep. I had only 1 dream when I wake up. The energy is so high, as I know it only from the Ayahuasca peaks. My inner field of vision is a firework of colors and movement. I rush out of bed to cool down. The whole body is on fire. I cool down quickly and also the Kundalini withdraws again. A glance at the smartphone: 1 o’clock.

I quickly fall asleep again, have two very beautiful dreams, with wonderful people, when I am again awakened by such strong energy that I get up and get rid of the clothes. I also put aside the light wool blanket, which I still use in addition because of the cold April nights. I cool down again and again the Kundalini withdraws completely. It is 2:30 in the morning. This time I am able to sleep through until 7am.

I wake up in a gentle cloud of energy and go over the previous night in my mind. What a kundalini! Bitch, I love you and I fear you. Then I go inside myself and start this conversation.

15.04.21
Extreme kundalini while falling asleep. Especially when I lay on my stomach, my heart chakra seems to burst with energy. It gets very warm and feels like a big ball of energy. I then have to lie down on my back again. When the energy is still too strong for me, I position myself bent over, with my upper body slightly erect. This keeps the energy at a tolerable level. Before each Kundalini surge, a brief brightening of the inner field of vision, which again confirms to me that it is the Ajna chakra that triggers the energy surges. The Third Eye is inviting the Kundalini, so to speak. First the impulse comes in the head, then in the root chakra.

The first dream is typical of an active kundalini. I dream of three dragons. The left dragon is white and the others dark blue. All three have long, snake-like necks and scaly skin. While the white dragon is dull, the blue dragons have a metallic shimmer. The blue dragons are younger than the white one, they have a childlike expression and seem uncertain. All three look at me from golden eyes. They belong together. A dragon family?

When I wake up, my body is on fire, every square inch. I get up and undress. The unheated apartment and the cool April night are a relief. So I lie down again thinly dressed, the same game as in the evening. Again I position myself slightly bent. Then I sleep through until 7 o’clock.

In the morning I go through all my dreams again. Again it was big cinema. In one dream I was meditating. I had closed my eyes and looked into endless, bright nothingness. No thoughts, complete peace. Then a dream where a low-flying helicopter disturbed my birthday party. Dictatorship paranoia catches up with you in dreams now. In the next dream I had a broom that could also be used as a computer. At least simple games were running on it 😀 In the last dream there were jazz musicians in my apartment. The trumpet player was very good!

I feed my cats and lay down again. Not to sleep, but to enjoy the very pleasant energy, this divine body feeling. After half an hour of Yoga Nidra, I get up.

I still have to think about the dragons. What impressive creatures! And I was so close to them!

16.04.21
A relatively mild Kundalini night with intense and very detailed dreams. An optic, as I know it otherwise only from lucid dreaming. In the morning a much more present Kundalini than during the night and exceptionally strong vibrations, although I am lying on my side. Normally these only occur in this intensity in the supine position and also only immediately before out-of-body experiences. I decide to end it and go barefoot on the terrace for 3 minutes. It’s 5:30 a.m. and the morning coolness does me good, as my hands and feet are glowing again. Then I lie down again for half an hour and go through all the dreams. There were two moments when I would have become lucid at lucid dream times. But I don’t practice that anymore, lucid dreaming doesn’t mean that much to me right now. I can get more out of my non-lucid dreams at the moment and their entertainment value is definitely high. I only say dragons and demons 🙂