Ayahuasca Erfahrungsbericht, Zeremonie 63-65 (Januar 2022)

Ich war enttäuscht. Vor allem, weil ich aus der Perspektive des Spirits gespürt habe, dass es wirklich so ist. Alles ist Illusion. Nichts existiert wirklich, nur in unserer Vorstellung, unserem Traum von lebendig sein. Ich beschloss es nicht anzunehmen, zumindest nicht für die Zeit meiner irdischen Existenz. Ich war sogar ein bisschen wütend auf den Spirit. Wie kann er mir mein Leben kleinreden? Ich bin ich und ich liebe es, ich zu sein!

Ayahuasca alone at home III

If there are problems, it is ALWAYS wrong set or setting, worst case both. The only thing that medicine does is to activate the Kundalini and open the chakras. But if the energetic hygiene in the ceremony room is neglected, then the participants become victims not only of their own negative energies, their own „demons“, but also those of others. They then have access to the energy body of the participants through the opened chakras. Some people leave a bad setting energetically „dirtier“ than they went in.

Ayahuasca alone at home II

When I woke up again after about 1 hour of deep trance, I was no longer myself. So, I knew who I am, what my name is, what my job is, who my family is and so on, but I didn’t feel it anymore. Complete dissociation! I only felt my soul anymore. The ego was just enough to realize that it was barely there. Again I fell into a trance, but this time a not so deep one. That let me enjoy this state consciously for a long time. I did the test and tried to think of everyday things, which I did not succeed in doing. I left it at that and gave myself completely to the peace of my soul, which enjoyed just being. Just being – that’s all the soul wants.

Ayahuasca Report, Ceremony 37-39 (November 2020)

The helper spirit is a female spirit and I feel what he (she) feels and it feels incredibly beautiful. He is full of love for people and gives me his instructions by intuition. Often I find myself wanting to do something, but then I do something completely different and it always seems to be just right. My ego is still present as a delicate shell, but quiet and in awe of the work of the spirit. Then the Spirit shows itself to me. It has no form. It is pure energy and appears to me as beautiful blue geometry.