The helper spirit is a female spirit and I feel what he (she) feels and it feels incredibly beautiful. He is full of love for people and gives me his instructions by intuition. Often I find myself wanting to do something, but then I do something completely different and it always seems to be just right. My ego is still present as a delicate shell, but quiet and in awe of the work of the spirit. Then the Spirit shows itself to me. It has no form. It is pure energy and appears to me as beautiful blue geometry.